Sharon
For Better Or For Worse
I want to take the time out to share a part of my life; MY MARRIAGE with you all. You know when you get married it means a lot. It is “surely” for better or for worse, and that is putting it mildly. When we take those vows, they mean something. We make a COVENANT with God … till death do us part. Well, about 3 yrs. into my marriage, I got sick. We all get sick at one time or another. Right? Anyway, It started out with my knee. Then the pain continued to get worse. I went to see the knee Dr. and I ended up getting injections in my knee. That worked for awhile. Then the pain moved to my back. I was still holding down my job by the Grace of God. By this time, the pain was excruciating and I started to miss days from work because I worked standing on my feet all day. My husband began to start acting funny. I tried not to believe what I saw or even what I felt. I’m talking about my husband; the other part of me. We are two as one; I thought. He made me feel like an outsider. Well, you guessed it. I had to end up quitting the job. I just couldn’t take it anymore. My husband began to treat me as if all I was worth was a paycheck, and it was part-time; every two weeks. He started talking about me to the kids. (My stepchildren) I thought they were OUR children. After all, we were married. I thought we were a family. I hurt way deep down inside. I cried, never wanting anyone to see me. I was in so much pain. BUT GOD stood right by my side. He Never left me. I was frustrated because I couldn’t get down on my knees to pray. Of course, I prayed anyway. I had to ask God to fix my heart, because even though I hurt way down on the inside, I still couldn’t let the anger get the best of me. I knew it would turn into bitterness. I had to REPENT! God has told us not to hold on to anger, but it was hard. I kept on loving my husband, in spite of. Taking real good care of him and the kids who were looking at me some type of way because of him. Out of everything I went through I still had my JOY! See, it’s a difference between Joy and happiness. GOD IS MY STRENGTH! He kept me going. He’s been good to me. I did what I was suppose to do. Did I mention that it was HARD? God touched my husband’s heart and I began to see a change in him. Nobody But God!!! My husband had been so mean to me, and treated me like I didn’t even matter. But that was THEN, and this is NOW.Praise God! (Obedience Is Better Than Sacrifice!) “ONLY BY THE GRACE OF GOD!” (GOD IS LOVE)
SHARON
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